Goals to Reach Internal Peace

~Through meditation I want to accomplish a greater foundation for my self confidence. I want to be capable in trusting my own knowledge. I want to be able to look in the mirror and see a future. I have been lost the last few months and I have a feeling as if meditation can lead me to my own inner peace. My goal for meditation is to simply find who I really am. What my strengths and weaknesses are and how I can get through life challenges. I want to become more objective towards my internal thoughts because that have created contradicting views towards my life. I have a screaming monster inside me that wants to break through my fake smile that portrays the image that I am happy. I want to find a way to let out what I have been holding inside me. I hope that meditation will be an answer in order to control my emotions and release the screaming monster.

~I hope meditation will bring peace into my rambunctious  lifestyle and relieve undesired stress. From everything happening at once it's hard to focus on one particular issue. I believe if I focus on one thing it can relieve some of my stress. From this I can learn how to control myself while in a chaotic situation.

~ I want to develop a more genuine appreciation for living in the now sense. My whole life I have dreaded on my mistakes in the past which creates anxiety for the future. I create a dishonest image about myself about how I will never be good enough based on my past. 

~ I hope meditation will bring a sense of knowing to open my eyes to the many blessings that God has given me. I don't want my life choices to depend on my depressing state of mind. I want to make decisions based of how it will effect my now leading into my future. Too often I focus more on the sad situations occurring in my life than looking for the good in everything. Adversity restricts me to move on with the happy aspects of my life and push love ones away that way I feel incapable to have a broken heart again. I want to learn how to remain positive through everything.

~ Most importantly I want to release my anxiety. It has effected my physical health to the point where I have been rushed to the hospital twice. I want to learn how to relax in any situation and imagine myself in a world without harm.