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    I had another counseling appointment today. I appeared to the meeting sololy by myself. I wanted to simply talk about how the previous meeting effected my emotions and cognitive thoughts. Within our conversation I felt as if I had an emphany. Through everything that has been occurring I have never noticed how I am the one actually causing my pain. My negative thoughts killed my inner strength. I always thought of the worst possibilities to everything that way I wouldn't have a shocking reaction to a lie. I noticed that for the past 5 months I have drove myself absolutely insane.  Yes, my family has caused the reason for my depression. However, I dwelled on the fact that things will never be the same.