Just like any other day, I'm exhausted and as busy as could be. Just before my soccer game I sat down and relaxed all my muscles. Every time I play soccer now, my emotions create a nervous knot in my stomach. Last year in the beginning of the season I sprained my MCL and LCL. My starting position was taken away from me and I was set back from everyone else. Till this day I am still recovering. Ever time I think about playing soccer, I get nervous because I want to prove everyone wrong and bounce back to where I was.
I want to be the best I can be so it's hard when something is holding me back from achieving my goals. Last year Jessica and I had goals for ourselves. We both were going to score 10 goals by the end of the season and become team captains for this year. She achieved both goals and I have achieved nothing. It was hard returning because of my knees holding me back. I was behind everyone else and nobody understood the heart I was putting into catching up. I was forgotten by my coach and my team. I felt as if I was simply the water girl, sitting on the side lines as the team carried on with drills. I could've been so much more than that.
Before the game I relaxed and told my self that this year is my year. Nobody will forget me and nobody will question my abilities. I know I'm good enough I just have to prove it. In order to not get worked up, I paused and told myself that it's just a game and I have to take it day by day. Just sitting there I soonly thought of nothing. Opening my eyes, I imagined myself to have the eyes of the tiger, intimidating yet content. I felt automatic strength. I'm ready for not only this game but also this year. Like I said before this year is my year.
No comments:
Post a Comment